Volcanic eruption of vent up frustration ?

Weatherman

2010-12-24T03:24:00.003+05:30

The idea of weatherman came up when I was trying to explain to a friend how the idea of free will might just be an illusion. Anyway, Weatherman is an entity that basically decides every weather related thing in this world. His will causes storms, cyclones, rain, snow, clear sky, thunder, you name it! Now, of course weatherman also is omnipresent in the atmosphere and observes the actions of all living and non-living things in it. Even the flight of an innocent butterfly can affect weatherman enough to cause a storm elsewhere. (also known as the butterfly effect :P). So the ultimate question that I propose is : Assuming the existence of weatherman, does he posses a "free will" ?? Or is his every action the only possible outcome based on his state and his interaction with the world? I still have not exactly defined "free will", and I guess that is a harder task that I had anticipated. So I guess I will call it the ability to make a non definite markovian decision.

Of course, we all know that all weather patterns are determined by the state of the atmosphere and it is unpredictable just due to chaos, hence you could say that, weatherman has really no free will. The illusion of free will comes from the fact that you can't exactly predict his next move. Is it the same with us humans? Is not the senses of a human like the pressure waves exerted on the air by the butterfly ? Is every action we do determined by our genes, our body structure and the environment? So do we have free will ? If you have read so far, and think your lives are just useless and you guys are just complex machines and have the urge to suicide, i suggest you refer to my section on suiciding for innovative methods to do so.

The only thing that can bring in an element of randomness to this seemingly stale and deterministic life is Quantum mechanics and I hope for all our sakes that it plays a significant part in brain chemistry or else we have to live with the fact that there is a non-opposable "fate".

If you wonder then, of what is the answer to this complex question, I can tell you the answer but I have no idea what it means. ..42 !

What's up in 2009

2010-01-03T06:26:00.003+05:30

The Wheel of Time turns, and Ages come and pass, leaving memories that become legend. Another spoke of the wheel has turned recently and we all celebrated the "New Year". This post has no real order in any sense chronological or otherwise, it's just a random collage of events and facts that shaped my life this year. And contrary to a lot of my other blog entries this one is not an eruption of any sort of frustration, it's just a flow of cool lava that somehow still miraculously remains liquid :P.

The current high point in my life was the trip to Zakopane the Winter capital of Poland. Unlike many people I am completely uninterested in places that have historical or artistic beauty. I just enjoy natural beauty and there always must be something to do so that I don't get bored, this might be the reason why I really enjoyed Zakopane, it was hand's down the best place I've been in Europe as of now. While the semi-tedious hike was exhausting, the view on the way was certainly refreshing and seemed to pump me with energy and the view on top of the mountain was certainly worth the harsh climb ! However, even the amazing hike paled in comparison the sheer joy I felt while skiing ! Moving fast is always a novelty for someone of my gravitational presence, and moving without friction accelerating at a rapid pace gives you a thrill that I have never found in any other sport. Of course falling down rolling and bouncing in the snow hurts like a bitch but then you think it was totally worth it and laugh it off. That is, till the nest day when you wake up hurting all over. :s Another reason for the complete success of the trip was the great company I had in my dormitory, the British-Irish family that stayed with us were not only incredibly fun, playing games like Mafia, Black-Jack etc but also spoke with one of the coolest accents I've heard that reminded me of Train-spotting. Maybe this trip deserved a whole post on it's own, but I am not a sucker for details so that's all I am typing.

Another big change in my life has been the amount of people I talk to everyday. While I was in Jena, Germany it ranged from 0,1 to 4-5 depending on whether I bunked classes or not. I spent most of my day and night playing MMORPGS, DOTA etc. or watching Anime or some other shit. However my life has certainly taken a change of axis in the complex plane between the real and the virtual life I led. Of course having English speakers in ones Hostel certainly had something to do with it, but it probably has something to do with the friends I've picked up over here as well. Bugging people in their rooms, talking, playing non-computer games etc. is remarkably similar to life I had in cmi hostel with some major differences. For one, the gaming is not computer based, for another there are girls all around unlike *shudder* cmi dorms in 2005-2008 and as I understand it, the situation now has changed somewhat. In spite of that I do miss people I could talk to without giving a flying fuck as to hurting feelings or reading emotions etc. Basically the Sheldon-ic lifestyle I led might have been enviable and certainly easier compared to the one right now, but I suppose everything has its own ups and downs.

Academically speaking.... wait wtf.. I don't want to talk about bs like that so never mind.

Big Bang theory has taken the cake in the TV series currently running. Sheldon continues to prove that he is the master. But Leonard once he stopped whining about Penny has become much more tolerable and recently really cool. Raj is the only Indian guy I've liked in an American TV series and he is quite good, episodes centered around him seem a lot funnier. Wolowitz-ed his best performance when he played the song for Bernatt-ed. Naruto has become really dissapointing but FMA, Bleach and Kekkaishi are getting great. I don't really want to talk about how bad HIMYM has gotten so fuck it. Haven't seen any great movie recently and Avatar was cool just because it was 3D and it's amazing computer generated reality.

Finally, I recommend Poland as a great place to enjoy your life. My "studies" are just described with quotes as all I really do here is find ways to annoy or excite people and spend time doing all sorts of cool shit. Warsaw is a good city to live in with a great nightlife, centers for all kinds of activities and a manageable crowd unlike London or Paris and above all really low living expenses. And from Warsaw trains are available to all other cities/towns in Poland for really low prices (especially night trains) like Zakopane, Sopot, Krakow, Gdansk etc. On top of all this Polish people are exceptionally tourist friendly, I've got free drinks in Pubs just because I am a foreigner ! This kind of thing is absolutely unimaginable elsewhere in Europe (at least it has never happened to me). I think they actually like having us here !

So thank you Poland, thank you Europe, and finally thank you Universe ... for existing, although that might be because of myself, so thank me, Cogito ergo sum.

Ze Germans vs Mallus

2008-06-17T01:17:00.002+05:30

Fucking power cuts and traffic blocks are pissing me off !
Stupid girls that are all corrupted by religion , even worse society ...aah
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And Ballack scores in free kick (vs austria, euro2008)!! , iam shifting from being the big fat mallu to be darthpsyko z german! ha !

ps: this sux too !!! i hate this place ! (or do i?)

From bad to worse... fate of the uni-verse

2008-04-20T12:06:00.002+05:30

As thermodynamics hints at people with its mysterious abilities involving some shitty statistical jugglery , entropy always increases. Many people are annoyed with their hair, i say blame entropy and phucking physics. I never bother to comb because i know the state of my hair will eventually revert to high entropic glory(?). combing it just increases entropy of the universe even more... Enough with crap.

Lets get to the issue at hand, the problems with my that-what-will-not-be-named (guess why) institute. Initially it was a decent place; geeky but decent. On top of an office building in the middle of a city with just a floor with few rooms. It was weird but cool. Then they shifted to the middle of nowhere, and i mean NO WHERE as in "courage the cowardly dog" if u have seen it.

We still had flats in the city so we had to travel hours through dust filled potholes, my back still aches. At least we could watch films on weekends. Then we shifted completely over to nowhere. Now to get out of nowhere, ie to go somewhere you have to travel for hours. The food is not great in nowhere (now here @ no where ; my mallu side cudn't resist sorry). I think i already posted about all the new "rules" in our messy mess. All this was OK'ed..

Now look what they have done, having a separate impassable canteen right in the doorway exclusively for our "more educated" instructors and co. making us detour everyday and night !
If this was all a bogart I could say riddiculus !!! Putting T.V's on rooms where echoes are louder than sources and people play T.T. Asking fines @ 1% per day (if banks did this i would have been a banker). Threatening students who have got admissions elsewhere to give no marks so that they continue to be nowhere... And add to all the misery a bunch of bongs who think they're the best. u get worse everyday. (Bongs don't have "V" sound, they replace it by "B" so they think west bengal is best bengal , the bunch of bussy wastards). man i hate this universe. I hate even its name see "uni-worse" it will monotonically be worse.

However, luckily for me I am getting out of nowhere into somewhere and that somewhere is not unknown, its great, a quantum fluctuation in an otherwise fucked up world. But as I said its quantum, there is a probability that some #@!|#^ &)($#^ will keep me nowhere but it's small.

@ppl who read my blog, i've been been out of it for sometime but iam back !

2008-02-28T10:28:00.001+05:30

Obel : a series of unfortunate events

2007-06-05T13:56:00.000+05:30

He said " Let there be " and there was light,darkness and Obel.
(Note: this is just for some kind of poetic beauty and crap, I dont believe in Him.)

Of course for those of you who have not read asterix, the nickname may be mysterious.
Also when there are people for whom the name would suit more, why does people here call him so? Its out of habit of the owner of cecilia (forgive me if there is a spelling mistake) that I call him so, and his real name is long and tedious.

Any way, it all began when obel came onto the world. Obel could be described as far as my knowledge a rotating wheel, not a rolling stone.
He has specific passions but he rotates through them, and events occurred in the wheel of time at different velocities and this caused a breakdown....
Ironically, when the wheel had reached the point css and co. wanted it to be, the wheel had already rolled off. Of course most of this will not make sense to those of who, who don't know the circumstances and people involved. When I heard to where the events of movie-making (with the highly appreciated "hey dude, i am in love" dialogue) and et playing had converged, it seemed like an expected twist of fate. But then I expected css to have more mercy but then you could read "The last Act" from Obel's blog. (The link is to the right)
But then he has gained 'tsubasa' and is free to fly with the wind rather than being stuck up with a bunch of geeks and geezers. But undoubtedly just by looking at the slx's space usage by owners you can see what obel contributed to systems here.
All I can say is that (c)m(i) lost most of it's 'i' (i for for the complex and imaginative part) when obel flew off.

Rurouni Kenshin aka Hitokiri Battosai

2007-05-31T12:07:00.000+05:30

Announcement: From this post onwards several of my posts will be about some of my best loved anime/manga

In English, this anime is called "Samurai X". It contains 3 OVA's , a movie and an anime series.
It describes the life of a feared assassin in Japan who killed hundreds in the Toko-Gawa regime and then repents. In the anime, he lives as a wanderer who uses a reverse edged sword so that he does not kill his opponent. The fighting sequences are just amazing and sometimes gives you goosebumps. The emotional depth of the characters portrayed are just beyond that in any real movie I have seen. The drama and the action is just superb and is above all others.
Of course anime like Naruto and FMA have sometimes better action sequences, however the combination of drama into the action takes it into a realistic level.

Undoubtedly, this is one anime that changed my life and my perception of it.
There are very few anime, movies and books that managed to do this, and I'll write posts for each of them.

For details on the plot and the anime look here.
To watch; You can look in the LAN ( only in my institute) or download by torrent. Else hope for animax to air it again.

Anime vs porn

2007-03-16T14:02:00.000+05:30

Above I have written two of the greatest addictions of mine.While most people are likely to exclaim that anime can't compete with porn, i dont think so.

Here i would like to compare the various aspects in these two "fields"

1.Fictional aspect

Anime are almost always fictional.Sex stories and porn movies are no less fictional.However one big difference is that anime never claims it to non-fictional wheareas porn gives a kind of feel that it can happen to you tomorrow.

2.Pleasure

As i have said before I can be called a chauvinist and so I dont care what girls get out of watching porn , but boys generally get damn aroused and erect dicks which we use to shag and gain more pleasure.
Undoubtedly this is much better than the pleasure you get from watching any anime unless it is hentai/echchi which is again porn and brings us to the intersection of the two sets.

Intersection :
Hentai and echchi : echchi is erotic stuff which shows max boobs, whereas hentai is 3X or more porn in anime.You consider this, anime can compete with porn in pleasure as well.

3.Plot/Story

If anyone sees porn with a good story line mail me at darthpsykoz@yahoo.co.in or comment here.

The anime plots are undoubtedly amazing and can compete with some of the best movies produced be it be in fantasy/action/drama/adventure/sci-fi/mystery you name it !

4.Scope for innovation

How much can you innovate in porn ? Of course this is constrained because of the fuckable items that exist. Girls come most naturally into the list (at least to me as I am straight fortunately/unfortunately), even if you are a gay/beastality intrested/alien /pedophile etc you still don't get much.

In anime you can do anything, draw anything , show anything.

Because of all these factors I find it more interesting to watch anime, i get bored easily
After being a pervert, I revert back to an anime fan.

All Hail anime.

For people who are sick of watching porn,
here i give you to adorn
anime that has been born;

In my order of preference : Naruto , Samurai X , Bleach , Full Metal Alchemist , Inu Yasha etc.

Almost all the episodes of Naruto and bleach are available on youtube.

Despite me having said all this I believe that porn is one of the basic necessities of mankind.
Of course there are exceptions to this like ravitej who are nothing but a minority in this vast universe of porn-maniacs.

Blog**ng

2007-02-09T23:30:00.000+05:30

Some people wonder
why i plunder
their works of 'art'
pierced by my dart

do they make shit?
they dont have wit
some people quit
due to anirbit?

is not bloging for fun?
then why do they run?
do they get the pun?
fuck, they are none

Some people do it fine
each and every line
others are in wine
but never really mine

some talk jargon
words flames from a dragon
phoenix burning and cragon
words in a wagon

they think they're great.
they carry much weight
but now they have taken the bait;
for i have the supreme weight*!

*meet me personally to check my claim
Thanx to the incorrigible_introvert (the patner of *) at blogspot who inspired darth to do this work.

Songs on our breakfast system by heavy mental bands

2007-01-28T11:07:00.000+05:30

Mentallica

The Nevergiven

What I felt,
What I had known
Never shined through my closed door,
Never seen, time's not my own
for a little me, a little you,
the breakfast is nevergiven.

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the door, see the sun
Behind the door, should I open it for you,
the breakfast is nevergiven.

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and hungry, I sleep alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who sleeps all day
Or are you unforgiven too?

Fade2hunger

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the breakfast to live
Simply nothing more to eat
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one breakfast is me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filing me
To the point of somalian kids
Growing hunger taking dawn
I was me, but now He's gone

No one but kv can save me, it's not too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Hunger Greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

Steel maiden

Fear of the clock

In the morning when the light begines to shine
And I am but sleeping,
Fear of the clock,
Fear of clock,
I have constant dear that breakfast time is over
Fear of the clock
I have a phobia that i'll b hungry for ever.

Why I hate this new campus

2007-01-27T09:47:00.000+05:30

Although the causes for this new frustration are so much that it can't all be put in one post, i'll try to do my best in giving justice to the topic.
We can divide the causes into :

Food

status: repairable

Although initially the food seemed gr8, now its dull. The main reason is that there is no bloody non-veg!
I have no idea if my institute has suddenly decided to interfere with the eating habits, neway we seem to have no chance of eating non-veg here.

Boring

status : partly repairable

Life itself has become centered around the comp-lab; even sleeping in the afternoons or even at night has become impossible because of the constant banging and other work going on
my institute plans to have a football and cricket ground afterwhich the situation may slightly improve.However things like movies , hotels even banking are all disturbed because of ...

Fucking Distance
status : irrepairable

my institute is like 20-30 km away from the city and is inside some fucking shitty roaded IT hole, where the it companies dont even alow u to use their banks (suckers)

Waking Up?
status : ????

Besides all this my institute is interfering in the one thing that made my institute look good ; sleep.
Since it is insisting that breakfast will be served only till 9 am (damn) , we because of the 20 ruppee loss if we dont have it, have it => sleep loss => efficiency loss => quality loss => my institute is gonna be screwed

2006-09-08T09:12:00.000+05:30

the game that changed my school life!
-Pen Fight

school life... i've heard a lot of ppl talking a lot of shit on it,
if ne students r reading this , beleive me its all false!
school life is shit..no was shit until from all of our frustrations evolved this amazing , popular but not famous game PEN FIGHT!
its quite amazing how this seems to hav developed in various parts of india.. like me in cochin played it, my friends from kolkatta, baroda, hyderabad.. man everywhere this game !!
of course iam assuming that all of u know what this game is if not , i'll breifly describe it 2 u,
[desc:have a table, ppl with pens , keep pens on table and keep hitting the pens at each other and knock them out (sort of like carroms)....]

neway this game gave me 1 good reason to goto school, i dont know which was the best part..
playing winning , destroying all thoose fucking pens which gave us trouble in exmas , evading teachers eyes ... the list goes on and every moment is too thrilling.

recently we've started playing it in our hostel, but unfortunately it does not have the same thrill like b4...
also we used to play in inclined tables which nullifies the adv of heavy pens, but my friends play in horizondal surfaces..not that good.
so if u havnt played it yet ..go play now->

2006-08-30T08:15:00.000+05:30

Reservations in buses

if u think iam going to write bout railway ticket reservations ur wrong.
this is bout reservation for girls that iam writing bout.

at first all the "feminists" and other parties say that girls are better than guys or at least equal....
after this they say that they want reservations!
riddikkulus!!
like imagine in most indian buses what happens. there are only a few seats and no: of passengers >>>> no: of seats => most ppl stand. (some even hang on through the window bars , amazing stunts)
in between all this they have half the seats reserved for girls!
even though the guy may hav been there 4 like 1/2 an hour ..its useless the girls who just came gets seats (aah my blood is pounding!)
looking at all this injustice i wonder y guys dont hold some hartals and stuff which they hold 4 everything in life!
of course there might be valid reasons for this as iam sure ppl like anirbit will tell, but wtf this's my blog and i'll write what i feel.
lastly forget the buses even in all the bloody ciniema theaters they hav privileges...everywhere they hav advantages!fuk!!!i hate them all !

with this i declare myself a chauvanist and henceforth all girls fcuk off!

2006-08-27T03:02:00.000+05:30

dogs in big city

welcome to the land of dogs
worse than the muckiest bogs
india's run over by stray dogs
i walk on the empty street,
my shadow is the only one besides my feet?
oh no, i c a huge dog fleet
barking , yelping and whooping
whelping, bithching and woofing
oh my dear life they're treatening!
do i luv my life or theirs?
menaka gandhi may like theirs,
but please if u like theirs,
go fcuk them 4 all i care
but please dont let them give me a scare
i dont hav enuf of a dare
to b around canines wild
iam just a mere child
use ne method wild or mild
but get them out of my sight
i dunno if iam in the light
but in my brain iam right!!!

2006-08-27T01:00:00.000+05:30

My Mind- a free bird

my body cant fly high,
i give a big sigh
but my mind can soar
penetrate every door
unchained it flies,
like fukcing house-flies
the world may ban porn,
but i can c it sweeter than corn,
people may tie me up,
but as for my mind;just give up
a dragon?
am i pagan?
it matters not
its 2 big for a knot
many games do i play
evil monsters i may slay,
whatever i mayb , iam not good
iam like darth sidious under his hood
read all this and you all will be screwed

2006-08-27T00:17:00.000+05:30

reality.

the 1 question that has haunted philosphers 4 how long i dunno , but quite long.

i truly believe that only what u can c and possibly c is real......
here see does not mean vision with eyes, it can b observation through nething.

if someone says ghosts exist but we can never interact with them, they dont exist 4 me,
"reality and truth is a function of the person."
so naturally shakespeare's famous quote is a special case of my statement (beauty lies in the i of the beholder..)
maybe the world is an illusion (maya) , or i mayb in a matrix whatever it is as long as i cant differenciate it is real

Why should people suicide?

2006-08-26T19:10:00.000+05:30

Iam sure that none in their rite minds wud agree with me, but well who says iam rite in the mind?
neway this post is to reason out why people shud commit suicide.
of course iam not asking all of you to do it... but i feel that those of who you are unsatisfied with life should defn do it.
there is nothing holy or precious about life.some may say that if i kill a person "gamman" can you bring him back?life can never be given only taken .... a load of such crap.
and y is it crap? cos , i can draw some shit on a piece of paper, and tell that its priceless cos you cant reproduce it,
similiarly life comes when a guy meets a girl and draws stuff on her (body and soul?) to create a piece of human life which none can reproduce, but is shit and is you, me and every1 else....

so u c, ur nothing special, if u feel like dying go ahead do it!
if u prefer voilence and is a masochist try cutting veins, hanging, etc.. or try poison if u want it clean.
of course a lot of countries like india ban suicide! (riddikkulus!!!)
i mean the poor guy wanted to suicide cos he was unhappy and then they arrest him for trying to end his miserable life?isnt ur life ur own? u can live it or destroy it.

ALL that matters is pleasure if u think ur life is not pleasurable enuf.. go and die man!